Unfulfilled love
I met her six years ago. I was in my first year of high school, and she transferred to our class. She came with a beautiful, well-proportioned friend. At that time, I didn’t pay much attention to her, and my best friend and I were both focused on her friend.
Within six months, he (my friend) fell for her (her friend), and I didn’t have much interaction with her. However, during a cultural performance, I noticed her, and then we collaborated on a few projects. That’s when I realized she was a talented girl!
A year later, I noticed she loved being quiet, enjoying reading alone. She knew a lot. I, on the other hand, liked playing basketball, but I loved reading martial arts novels, and I asked her to borrow books for me. It’s strange, she borrowed the books I liked, though I didn’t really enjoy them.
Maybe I just wanted more time with her. So, during PE class, I started running to the classroom more often. My basketball friends wondered why I stopped liking basketball. Because I knew she was there!
One time, I entered the classroom and found her sleeping quietly, her head resting on the desk, like a little kitten. I walked up to her, and she was sleeping soundly, probably very tired, with beads of sweat on her forehead. I reached out to wipe it, but I was afraid. So, I just lay on the opposite side of the desk, quietly watching her.
I swear, that was the closest I ever looked at her. Her face was thin, her nose petite, and honestly, she wasn’t very beautiful and had a few small freckles. But at that moment, I knew I had fallen in love with this quiet girl with freckles!
Suddenly, she moved, and I was so scared that I rolled and ran away. I tripped at the door, embarrassed, haha. She didn’t know. Maybe she knows now!
I don’t know why I always had inexplicable conflicts with her, but somehow, they were always resolved miraculously, with the help of my English teacher a few times! She didn’t know, but I did. Many times, it was my teacher who helped me! I didn’t realize it; I just went through each day, neglecting everything!
In my second year, I was just playing around. Haha, we grew even further apart! I don’t know why! When the holiday was almost over, I hadn’t even spoken to her. Why did I seem to hate her? I don’t know why I felt that way.
Soon, I was about to transfer to another school. During the holiday, we had a class gathering, and everyone was there! That night, she was drunk! She kept saying she hated me! I didn’t know why. I still haven’t asked her! After all, it’s in the past. I really don’t know why I didn’t tell her I loved her. Maybe we were still young!
I transferred back to Anhui, and we didn’t keep in touch much. But I still loved her. Within four years, we only spoke once on the phone, and she even forgot who I was.
How pathetic! Another time online, she added me on QQ. We had a video chat; she had changed, I had changed, she didn’t recognize me! But I still recognized her! Forever!
Four years passed! I went to Shanghai and got her number from my sister, who was our classmate! She is one year older than me, or two years, I forget! Oh right, she’s one year older. Now I remember, we knew each other in junior high! This June marked the 20th anniversary of our acquaintance! We should celebrate and visit our former class teacher.
After getting her number, I chatted with her every day, sent texts, but she forgot many things about me. I talked a lot, sent many texts, sometimes until 2 AM! She replied once, and I replied several times. I thought it was happiness, but we never met. I told her a lot, she asked why I thought she was good. I didn’t know why, but I never said I loved her!
Until one day, I had a motorcycle accident, and she said she wanted to visit me. I didn’t take it seriously, but soon, a call came. I was stunned! I had a bandage on my head, and the room looked like a dog’s den. I couldn’t take her to where I lived. I put on some clothes and went to pick her up.
At the train station, I saw her right after she got off the train. She was even more beautiful! She wasn’t the same girl anymore! It was raining, a bit cold! I swore that day was the second dumbest of my life. But she insisted on asking why I didn’t take her to my place! I was stubborn and didn’t say anything. Maybe that caused a conflict. I went to a hotel and got a room for her to rest.
That was the first time I stayed in a hotel. She called me stupid! Haha! I really didn’t know. But when we talked, she wanted to leave! She was a decisive person, I always thought so. When I was with her, I realized she was the one in charge, but I didn’t see her off. She left! Five minutes later, I went crazy, running around the old street for two rounds, couldn’t find her. I didn’t notice she was still in the street. I wasn’t careful enough!
Two months later, she came to see me, took me to eat KFC for the first time. I never ate those things, so I said it was my first time. She didn’t believe me. I didn’t believe my own words either. At 23, I hadn’t eaten KFC before? She didn’t believe me. She asked if I would accompany her to Jiangsu for an exam. I agreed! My sister also went for the exam, and we went together!
On April 1st, she asked me to be her boyfriend for half a year. I thought it was an April Fool’s joke, but I was very happy, and I didn’t take it as a joke!
When we arrived in Suzhou, they had already booked rooms but didn’t book one for me. My sister didn’t know I was coming. She said we could squeeze in, with her and her friend on one bed, and I on another. She refused. I said I’d book another room, but my sister said it was a waste. We parted unhappily. I said I had a cousin at Suzhou University, so I went to his place. But I didn’t know his number.
That night, she texted me about eating KFC porridge the next day! So, I randomly took a bus for about 30 minutes and found a KFC. I found a nearby hotel and stayed. My sister is usually frugal, but I never thought she was stingy. I actually admired her, despite failing the exams several times!
The next morning, I got up early and bought her congee at KFC! We spent the morning at the hotel, nothing happened. She was a traditional girl, and I liked that. I understood why she didn’t want to stay overnight with me, even though nothing happened. I only held her hand. I still admired her!
My sister finished her exam in the morning and left. After the exam, it wasn’t ideal. I tried not to make her angry, but I still upset her. I went to buy train tickets because I had never taken a train before. I bought them wrongly. Really, I never took a train! We returned gloomily. She said she wanted some quiet time! It was my first train ride! Haha. You might not believe it, but it’s true! In the waiting hall for two hours, she bought a book called “Chicken Soup for the Soul,” which we had already read and discussed a lot. That was the happiest time I spent with her.
In late April, there was another exam. She asked if I would go. I said no. She asked me to accompany her. I bought her a box of chocolates. When I went, she gave me a pretty expensive wallet because she noticed I didn’t have one. I was touched!
That night, we talked on the phone, and I was really tired! She had an exam the next day! Finally, I told her to study and hung up. She didn’t answer my calls anymore! That was our last conversation.
My job was unstable, so I went to another city. I hadn’t contacted her for three months. She sent me a few texts! Just now, she told me she gave up on me! She had been loving me, giving me half a year, and reminded me of our promise two days ago. I was stunned! I didn’t reply.
Just now, after October 1st, she told me she had been waiting for me to say I loved her, but I didn’t say it for half a year. She was very disappointed. She loved me and kept hinting at me. Until the end of our promise, I never said it! Am I really that stupid? I swear, that’s probably the dumbest day of my life.
I never thought such a melodramatic story would happen to me. I can’t even cry because it hurts, my heart hurts! I don’t know what to do? Maybe it’s just like that?
Sigh! No matter how great Beethoven is, he can’t play away my sorrow!
I thought a lot!
I had copied some sentences from the internet, but something felt off. Today, a confidant told me it was tacky, so I deleted them! Indeed, it was
! Thanks!
Maybe I still want things to happen in the future, but I think nothing will happen! I feel good! Really.
As long as you’re alive, it has nothing to do with me, and I have no more attachments!
As Guo Jingming said, many things we can’t forget are forgotten in the process of remembering. I will forget all of this!
Only two months have passed, and I realize I don’t have feelings for her anymore! No mood! Frustrated! I realize I was wrong! I didn’t really love her. True love doesn’t need those three words and won’t fade in two months. So, starting now, I don’t love her anymore!
Thank you for reading! ” Sitestorys “
