Touching Love Story : Really Miss You
Tonight, for some reason, I find myself thinking of you. It’s been a long time since I last thought of you. Really long, so long that it almost feels like we never knew each other.
Do you know? There are so many things I want to tell you. I want to tell you about everything that has happened around me these past years. It’s been a long time since I confided in anyone; I haven’t even shared my thoughts with friends. Because no one understands me like you did. No one sees my inner self, and I’m too lazy to explain anymore. Let them think what they want about me. Anyway… I don’t care!
What I love most now is being alone in a quiet place, listening to those familiar sad old songs, staring blankly into the distance. I’m so tired! It turns out that getting along with people is so difficult. I never thought that I still couldn’t truly integrate into this society. People always call me a fool, say I’m simple, say I’m stupid, say I’m an idiot! Haha! Is it really that bad to live a simple life?
I don’t know why, but lately, I always feel like crying for no reason. I don’t even know what I’m sad about. Maybe it’s the carefree childhood, maybe it’s the youthful school days, maybe it’s the fleeting youth, maybe it’s those memories I don’t want to think about anymore!
I’ve realized that some memories aren’t that hard to forget. Wounds that once bled profusely now, in retrospect, seem like a scene from a love movie without an ending. A story everyone knows, with a plot everyone knows, just without the ending everyone already knows! Finally, I understand that love is like a circle, with a destined beginning, a destined process, and a destined end! No one is an exception; people just think they are the exception! Many seek, but few give; many give, but few cherish. Things rarely go as planned, and I think that’s life!
I’ve always thought that if one day, my lover, who once swore eternal love, wants to leave me, I wouldn’t stop him. If his heart is no longer with me, everything loses its meaning. I wouldn’t force him to do something he doesn’t want to do. I love you, so I let you go free! Even if I just watch you from afar, as long as you are happy, I feel it’s all worth it! Just like the lyrics in “Baby” say, “They say lovers are like children, and you are my baby. Only when hurt do you come to me, loving you, caring for you, forgiving you. When you are well, I am well!” Isn’t loving someone like this? It can easily erase the selfishness in people, and everything is just for you. When you are well, I am well.
Do you think? Will we meet someone worth cherishing in this life? Remember I once told you I’ve seen too many people being irresponsible in their marriages, so if I get married, as long as the other person isn’t too excessive, I wouldn’t easily divorce. But I’m really scared of marriage. I’m afraid I won’t be able to fulfill the responsibilities of a wife and a mother. I’m afraid he will disappoint me. I’m afraid I won’t be able to bear the pressures of life. I’m afraid…
I’ve always been looking for someone, someone worth cherishing, someone who can protect me, someone who supports me and doesn’t think I’m a fool, someone who truly loves me with all his heart! Do you think? Will I find him? Yes! Right? I think you would definitely say so. Yes! The person destined for us is always out there, anxiously looking for us too. It’s just that the time hasn’t come yet, right?
Time flies. I don’t know if we will meet again in this life? If we do, what will we say? Will it be like before? Or will it be awkward? I don’t know, but I know we will always be good friends, forever…
Thank you for reading! ” Sitestorys “
