Libra and Cancer Can Avoid Hurting Each Other
I am a Libra, a stubborn and sensitive person, who doesn’t believe in love after watching too many Korean dramas.
He is a Cancer, a cold and careless person, who doesn’t believe in love after watching too many movies.
We met four years ago, on a warm winter afternoon, in a chat room.
First, let me clarify that this is not an online romance, nor can it be considered a relationship. It’s just a connection that exists through the internet, a simple yet complicated relationship.
At that time, I had already lost interest in chatting because it felt boring after six months, and many online friends eventually disappeared one by one. So, logging into the familiar chat room was just a habit. I forgot the reason we started talking. Neither of us enjoyed chatting much, so we only spoke occasionally.
His last relationship ended before we met. It seemed to be one of those inevitable college relationships that start and end without reason. That’s all he ever said about it. I calmly told him I was with someone and felt good about it. He said it was something bound to happen in high school and would soon end, meaning nothing much.
Three months later, I found myself unsure why I was with that person, so it ended. It felt like playing house as a child; when it wasn’t fun anymore, you just stopped. I didn’t tell him.
Later, during the May Day holiday, he didn’t email me, so I sent him a message saying we shouldn’t contact each other anymore. So, I lived alone for a few months, through the summer.
Because the email service I was using suddenly started charging, I switched to a new one without telling anyone. It seemed like many sites were canceling free email services, so we lost touch.
Later, I skipped class to go to the computer room with students from other grades, and suddenly thought of that chat room. I left a message with my new email, saying he could email me if he wanted. Then we started contacting each other again. I asked him why he didn’t email me after I said not to contact me anymore and didn’t even ask why. He said he was afraid of seeing those four words again: “don’t contact me.”
So, days went by, sending a few emails each week, sharing funny things from life, and venting. He had graduated and moved to another city. I told him senior year in high school was tough. He said junior year in college was tough too.
We never talked about feelings, but kept in touch like this. I continued to complain about senior year, and he kept saying it was no big deal from his perspective. My senior year was further disrupted by SARS. When he had a fever, I joked that he should pass it on to me, and he said there was no chance. And so, it went on until today.
I chose my school in his city, not because of him, but because I liked the school. Coincidentally, he came to my city for school while I went to his city for mine. He sent lots of information about the school and jokingly said, “I want you to come here more than anyone else.”
This was the most ambiguous statement so far.
I don’t know if he has others he stays in touch with via email like I do, but when he tells me not to run around in the heat, I feel that this is the kind of care I need.
I don’t know what place I hold in his life, but I know he doesn’t mean much in mine either. I haven’t told anyone that I have known someone for four years.
I know he still doesn’t take feelings seriously, and even if I disappear now, he won’t look for me. He knows I will speak up if I’m unhappy, so he’s not worried about me being upset.
I know that if I say I’m unhappy, he will tell funny stories, so I can directly say I’m unhappy.
We live our lives in our respective cities, busy, emailing each other about annoying mosquitoes and cold weather, saying what we want to say. He still tells me which movies are great and worth watching, and I still say that even though Korean dramas are deceptive, they are really good. He still says games are great, and I still say I’m too clueless to play.
If they say Libra and Cancer aren’t suited to be lovers, it’s because there’s no need to be lovers. These are two people who don’t care about definitions; as long as it feels right, nothing needs to be measured. What happens in the future, I don’t know. I just want to say that Libra and Cancer can avoid hurting each other.
Thank you for reading! ” Sitestorys “
