Heart Lies in the Coolness

The class bell rang, and the students obediently returned to their classroom. Just a few minutes into the lesson, there was a knock on the door. A boy entered, and the teacher said, “He’s a new transfer student.” He was tall and handsome. There had always been an empty seat next to me, so the teacher had him sit there, making him my new deskmate.

During the break, when I walked to the playground, I was surprised to see him sitting alone on a bench under a tree. Seeing his back, I felt an inexplicable sadness. He suddenly turned around and saw me watching him, giving me a polite smile. His smile deeply attracted me, and before I could react, the bell rang again.

He called out to me, “Class is starting, let’s go back to the classroom.” Back in class, I shyly asked him, “What’s your name, deskmate? My name is An Xiaofeng.” “I’m Xia Miexi, you can call me Xiaoxi!” We became good friends like that.

Time flew by, and more than a year had passed. Tomorrow, our teacher was taking the entire class on a field trip. I would go with my deskmate Xiaofeng and my two other good friends, Yier and Mengyu.

Yier was beautiful and feminine, with many admirers, which made me a bit jealous. Mengyu was a pure, kind-hearted girl who was very understanding and liked by everyone.

I called Xiaofeng, and he turned around. I lightly kissed him and said, “I like you.” Xiaofeng replied, “Shall we date?” “Okay.” When the sun rose, we headed back. Xiaofeng and I went to school, ate, and left school together. Many classmates envied us. Xiaofeng was perfect in every way: academically, in looks, and in talents.

Many liked and pursued him, but he chose me in the end, and I was very happy to be with him. From the first day he came to school, I had been quietly observing everything about him. From the moment he walked into the classroom, I was deeply attracted to him. I had never expressed my love for him until now, when I bravely said, “I like you.”

We had been together for a year without any quarrels. Today, I heard some unfortunate news—everyone said that Xiaofeng went to a hotel with another woman, but I didn’t believe it. I told them I trusted our relationship, that he wouldn’t be with another woman. Days passed, and even my two good friends told me he had gone to the hotel more than once.

“Did you have a fight?” “No.” “Come on, let’s find him. He’ll definitely go to the hotel today.” So, I went to the hotel with Yier and Mengyu. After a while, a man and a woman entered. I couldn’t believe my eyes—it was Xiaofeng. Tears fell instantly, and my heart ached. Why was he doing this? Didn’t he love me anymore? I ran back to the dormitory crying, and they hurried to comfort me.

I called Xiaofeng and asked to meet at the hotel entrance. When he arrived, I slapped him. “Why did you lie to me? Why are you with another woman?” Xiaofeng said nothing. “I understand now. Everything I saw was true. I can’t deceive myself anymore. Xiaofeng, let’s break up. Go be with that woman. Have fun with your third party, I’m leaving…”

As I turned to leave, tears streamed down my face. Xiaofeng hugged me, “Baby, I’m sorry.” “What’s the use of saying sorry? You betrayed me. How can I forgive you? Can’t you feel the love I’ve given you this past year? Do you know how much my heart aches because of what you did? If you love her, please treat her well. I wish you happiness.” After saying this, I left.

Mengyu saw me return and noticed my haggard appearance. She said painfully, “Xiaoxi, take care, everything will pass…” I still had feelings for him, but I didn’t want to be sad every day. I reminded myself not to think about him anymore.

A new year had come quickly, and it had been more than a year since we broke up. Would he still remember me? There were so many things I wanted to tell him.

Remembering our happy times together made me genuinely happy, but those days wouldn’t return. As I thought about it, tears flowed uncontrollably again. I realized that despite the time apart, my heart still loved him deeply. But he was already gone, out of my reach.

“Meixi, Meixi…” “What is it?” Mengyu and Yier shouted, “I saw An Xiaofeng.” Just as they finished speaking, Xiaofeng knocked and entered. We all fell silent. Xiaofeng spoke first. “Meixi, can we get back together?” “What about that woman? Did she dump you, or did you dump her, and now you’re back to find me? Do you think I would take you back? I loved you and waited for you for a year, but you didn’t return.

Now, I don’t love you anymore. I really don’t love you anymore, do you understand? Leave, I don’t want to see you again.” Xiaofeng said, “I broke up with her long ago. I’ve only now come back to find you. I’ve thought it through, and you’re the one I truly love.” “It’s impossible. You loving me doesn’t mean I still love you.

Please leave, I have my life, and you have yours.” Heartbroken, he left my sight, and we never saw each other again. This time, it was truly over… I could move forward on my own.

I finally understood that our love was too distant. Perhaps even if we tried our best, we wouldn’t reach each other. If we stubbornly clung on, we would end up hurting each other completely. It turns out that love is not about possession, but about the other person’s happiness.

Not separating would mean giving up even more. It’s not that I couldn’t let go, but that we must bear our own responsibilities. So, maybe not confessing our love from the beginning was the best ending.

Editor’s Note:

There is never a person you can’t live without. Someone you can’t live without now doesn’t mean you won’t be able to live without them forever. There’s nothing you can’t give up. Never reconcile with someone who has betrayed you. If they betray you once, there will be a second time. Our path is long, and there are better people ahead for us.

Thank you for reading! ” Sitestorys “